Right!

lately i have been struggling w/ a lot of things..and i am going to be very real right now and say that....dieting..and making myself throw up is one of them..and I really..have just been over come with this..i feel gross..and ugly..and not believing the promises that God has for me..and how foolish it is for me to believe these things...

I was really convicted to read isaiah 43...and ephesians...Gods faithfulness and then who I am in him...Oh praise him for his goodness and my ridiculousness....YA
(the poem is one that i wrote today..really just talking about my struggles and whats going on in my life)

ya...I want to be so ...in love w/ Gods word that I can tell truth from lies..and i know i can tell truth from lies but i want to believe the truth rather then the lies..and that has been a huge problem with me..and...if i could just believe them it would make it so much better...for me to be able to trust Christ instead of believing the things that I shouldn't...he promised me he would never leave me or forsake me and i am so thankful for that..he promises me that he loves me....he DIED FOR ME!! And he rose again...

Oh PRAISE HIM

update major

it has been 80 days since i cut 80 80 80 80 80 80 80 80 YES 80! HOW EXCITING!!! I cannot even believe it, i mean..of course I can my God is faithful and he has made it so hat i have power enough in him to do this....:-D PRAISE THE LORD...oh man! so
I decided to ....make this 80 day excitement i've also decided to stop drinking soda...so that starts today and...i am excited to make this change. i am also going to try to do 30 minutes of exorcise everyday. i already did 33 today, and i want to do some more when my mom gets home. I want to be healthy..:)
I also have decided im going to be myself..or well better put, who God has made me to be.. I am done trying to make other people happy...it isnt the way i was made to live, and i refuse to do it :) ANY LONGER :-D
God you are so good, and you are the only voice that i should be listening to. Lord I know you put many things into my life that I dont particularly like, but Lord you are in control of it all and i am so thankful for that. God thank you for giving me people in my life who really love me. Lord who really care for who i am and what ive been through. and God i thank you that you love me regardless of all ive done to hurt you Lord, all i've done to ruin your name. You are so forgiving and so amazing. Lord help me forgive those who hurt me God, who all they want to do is put me down. I know that isn't your will Lord so i ask for those people to realize what they are doing to themselves by acting like that towards people, and lord help them grow in you
thank you Lord