bajam

well well well...today hasn't been much of an interesting day, im not going to lie..but thats ok! xD! Today i deff slept in, not going to lie it was ridiculous...but thats ok...maybe until 1:40 pm and i fell asleep @ 12.something i think if not 11 something. I exorcised today..ive been doing it everyday and it's an awesome thing!I do it when i get frustrated, upset, or just want an awesome time...lol -_- naw, but really it helps me a lot when i get bored i can exorcise, or do something like that. Quiet time has been so good :)...so so good :) W00t
H-E-L-L-OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO beautiful..am i going bowling, or chilling @ my house for my birthday?...decisions decisions.. :(
bleh
8 days..till my bday... 10 till party ;)

God is in control

I am a stupid girl *laughs* sometimes you know, it's like i make the stupidest ideas...in my head, i have stupid emotions..i just i dont know..it's a hard time for me..and i really dislike living with people for so long and then getting cut off from it...:) I have to realize that God is in control...


So I was reading today in this thing called Manhattan Declaration and it's talking about Christians needing to taking a stand! I'm so so so excited! I decided to sign it! Because I am going to take a true stand for what needs to happen :) So w00t w00t..God is a good God and im pumped to see what happens lol....if I die you know why :)
because im going to be a martyr for Christ if that's what that needs to happen..
<3

Im scared

Have you ever liked someone a lot? and thought things were going the right way..and then one second, one choice made you change your mind?Maybe it was stupidity on your part, or maybe on theirs....either way your having major issues and guess what? The major time you want to talk to them you cant? I wish you could have seen it this morning when I woke up? It's ridiculous you know..how one can feel so inferior by 2 comments made :( I really cannot wait until he gets back so we can chat about this because I am sick of feeling this way...and on top of that I Slept through my alarm for church because i've been so worried and waking up every other hour.
Blog, im not going to lie..I haven't liked someone like this in a while..and it's killing me that he might screw me over. I don't want to believe it, because he seems to be an awesome man of God...but sometimes things say other words....I just wanted to beg him not to hurt me and if it was going to go anywhere w/ him and his ex to just drop me now because, Lord...I am not so sure how my heart will fare with being broken again. But the truth is Lord your in control of all..and it's true he is in control of all wither or not I like it. and I told myself I needed to understand that if he wasnt the right person for me, that I would listen..and that I would gladly take the hint and peace...but like sometimes I just feel like he is, and it's killing me because...my heart is in way deep..not sexually we arent, I am not kissing until marriage, but oh my heart will truly be ||destroyed|| but my God will protect me...
So if your a Christian and you read this..just pray for my heart. cause I like this boy a lot..and i know God's in control but i will still cry, i will still be quite upset, but i know in the end that my God is a good God...who protects me from all kinds of evil, and promises good things for me...
-_-...
<3

BLAHZZ

Break has been going interestingly so far! Exorcising every day, as well as quiet time. so spirit and body getting exorcise, i am anyway. Already things are going on that would make it very easy for me to stop believing, to stop thinking that God is in control. But then I hold myself back to the fact that my God knows everything, and that he is a God of order and control. He knows what he's doing and I am so thankful for that...Im a little nervous about some things going on but like i said before my God is a good God and i know that he can be trusted....we are reading Revelation in our Quiet times, and it's so exciting..not to see the end of the world or the end times i supposed, but you know, the fact that no matter whats going on God has it in his hands..God has it so that he knows all of it.My birthday is pretty soon (the 9th) and i am quite pumped...my friend..(good friend) doesn't have 500$$ to get his car fixed and it looks like we might not be able to hang on my birthday which would hurt a lot..but I guess sometimes God makes things happen....I just haven't decided if he's trying to tell me something or you know maybe this is just satan doing what he does best trying to confuse....us :( Lord if you could make this obvious..itd be so amazing....
I love you so much Lord, and im so thankful for the fact that you are holding all things in control...its amazing <3 <3 <3 I also ask that you give me contentment if i cant get to chill w/ Jef on my birthday, or anytime soon...
:(

Oh Lord

I wont lie, Im hurting a lot right now..=[ A friend of mine, a pretty good friend. Of my brother's, and mine for that matter...is telling people he is an Athiest..when for all the time i've known him growing up, and just...getting older. An Avid Christian.I was so proud of him and what was going on, but at the same time I was worried and i felt it coming...*Sigh* Lord give him strength to see who you are again. This happens to people....they walk away from God, they forget who he is and what he has done for them. and truthfully...what WE did to him..and by that I mean nails, pain, and death. I would ask that fellow Christians pray for my friend..I love him to death as a brother and im scared for him.. :(
I just thought id..rant a bit for that
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Lord,
Thank you for the God that you are. and thank you for allowing me to believe, and grow deeper in the knowledge of you. I am so thankful that I am able to worship you. God I ask you to lift up my friend. Im so troubled for him Lord, and Im so scared this he wont see who you are. But Lord, you are in the business of saving people and you are also in the business of bringing people back to you. and I am so thankful for that.I am thankful that you have the power Lord, and I dont have to worry because you are in full control. I Ask Lord you bring people into his life, that make him sure that you are real again lord. that you dont allow this little time to ruin his testimony for you.
I ask that you allow me the words just to explain Lord. To show your love to him, and understanding that he wants. Lord I pray that he will be willing to listen and you give wisdom to the people.....Im so in love with you Lord. Help me that I wouldn't fall into the same traps more then ones...I love you so much Lord...
=x

Grandma Day

So! today has been so far, a wonderful day! But, so is everyday for the ones who love Christ aye?! Going home tomorrow..It feels like this day is never going to end, but at the same time it's such an amazing thought that i'll be on my way home tomorrow morning. and then there promptly...if something goes wrong MAYBE an hour later :-p
Im continually being slammed by satan this week and it's hurting im not going to lie...But I know my God has good things in store for me. Most likely this is going to become more of a prayer log..because thats what I do a lot, and i figure...eh why not :-p
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Lord, thank you so much for the God that you are. Thank you for the things that you do. God so many times when things go wrong I find it easy to turn and try to get other things to fix the issues. Im finding Lord that you are my God and you are the only one that can make life worth living. You are the only one that allows me to breathe each day and Lord I thank you for being in control. Lord I want to lift up my friends today Lord, as we go on break from wolbi for some people it's going to be hard. they will be put through many temptations, Some from Satan and some from themselves. I ask that you keep them strong Lord and grounded in your word. Lord I ask you let them all arive home safely with their families to celebrate Thanksgiving, and give thanks to you! The Lord and God who made it possible for us to be thankful for something!! I love you so much Lord
Amen

Wonderful, merciful

Wow,
It's been an interesting week ...o.0 or since whenever i last wrote on this blasted thing ^_^...jk. A lot has happened, and it's been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster.....I am learning however that our God is so good, and that even when we are stupid..and try to ruin good things he's put in our lives, those good things stick, knowing our God has something good for us :) and it just makes me happy that my God blesses me even in my stupidity......SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooo My friends got engaged this weekend..It was beautiful :) And I had the privilege of being part of it, we got to be there and take a video, and i took some pictures (about 50?) and it was pretty nice weather to...and especially good company ^_^!!!
ANYWAY.........I get to go home on wednesday for break, and wont come back until January 2nd..thats a beautiful thought. I know I will regret it when i get home but until then :) I will be happy!
ALRIGHT enough rambling im going to go take a nap :)

so good

God is so good isn't he?! ^_^ He's been doing so much in my life, showing me how amazing he is...it's so hard sometimes to show gratitude! But we need to get off our butts and do so! (cool right^) ANYWAY.....
I just wanted to put it out there that he is so good and i am so little...I need to be thanking him every day :)
-Isaiah 26:3

W-O-W

OK! So it's been a pretty long time since I have even decided to write on this...BUT the only reason is i've forgotten completely..but something tells me I will remember more often..ANYWAY ...Life in a little ...(here we go)
Got to school

Met cool people

Turning 22 in 23 days

Met this creeper named Jef,

Hes ok :-p

lol