interesting

Im sad/excited to tell you that iw ont be online for the next week.I am doing a bible study with my discipler, and we have decided to take it to the next level and actually do something about the things we are reading. we are reading about media, and so i am going to stop using internet and cell for a week..it will be trying, but i will spend the time not online..and hopefully i will be spending time in the word of God, because after all so much more important anyway :)

ANGRY

hey! At least I told it someone who can keep a secret. I could have told TJ. It would have been all over campus by last night! furthermore, I'm moving on with my life. I don't really think you get it! My weakness is that I care too much. So to compensate I've decided that I don't care. Here are the exact words I gave Kevin. I give a crap about you, but I don't care about you anymore. If you ruin your life on other guys like Jef, I'm just gonna sit back and say "I told you so". I'll still be here, but I'm not gonna dive to deep into your life anymore. I'm not gonna worry about your personal life. You said you wanted to be friends. I like being acquaintances better. Then we dn' have to worry about talking too much.

Furthermore this is some of the crap that I'm talking about! "Why do you need to talk about me?" Oh boo hoo! Woe is me! Grow up. I mean that int he nicest way possible. First of all, Kevin asked about the reason I came up, "if it involved a certain somebody". Next time get your facts. I also knew that you would pull the God card. You really don't want to change. If you did you would have started by now. You are the same Sarah as last spring. That is the problem. Changing (just like salvation) begins with a conscious decision to turn from your sins. I've started realizing the need for change, and the need for God to change that. I also don't think that you know what grace really is!

Don't take this as an offensive letter and disregard it (which I'm sure will happen!). I'm telling this because I hate you. I'm telling you this because I love you. I do. Maybe it is changing, but I still hold you up to the same standard as I've always had. I still give a crap, and will be saddened upon your hurt, but I'm looking to be too involved in your life anymore. I'm too dangerous for you, and you are too dangerous for me. It works both ways.

May you grow in the grace and knowledge (truly grow, not just simmer) of our Lord Jesus Christ,

Michael Beauharnois






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To you..

HOW do you help someone
who doesnt want help?
They say they want to change...
But when you try they say thnx..but no thanks
It's losing me....
and im afraid im losing them
I want to help so badly
God your the only answer to this issue
Make her see the pain i feel..
Show her how much I care
That this isnt something i enjoy
That being right isn't a thing i like
I love her and want whats best for her...
AHHH WHY CANT YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME
I know what it's like to struggle with addiction ...
I know that its harder then people think...
And the only answer is God
*sigh*

woord to ur snuggie

OK SERIOUSLY.....
Today ended up being such a great day! Started out this morning getting up at 8:30 to go to my house by 9! grabbed the car, grabbed the girls and started on the road. got to my house about..9:45 and made breakfast...we played singstar, watched mulan and hair spray and just had such a great time! we even made a video! It was just such a beautiful thing..I Really enjoyed hanging out w/ my friends! I even got to see my madre..OH PRAISE THE LORD! I really wanted to see her because im going to my friends house for spring break so ;) friends house was important you know?
anyway...yeah This video..is in revenge to the Snuggie monster video they made for snow camp. its not really against them i just wanted to make one...and i thought this would be mad funny *sigh* lol how can you not enjoy something like that? ...anyway! this week i think is going to be a fabulous week..but only time will tell...after devos chilling w/ my dc/discipler...:) rock on time..
until later home fries
<3 chill

yay

wow! Long weekend! I counseled..and im not sure if i said before counseling, how much i didnt want to counsel but let me just share with you that i didnt want to ..and i wasnt afraid to let people know..man my attitude was so horrible going in to the whole thing..I just knew that something was going to go wrong and i would end up being like c..i told you i shouldnt and be a jerk..*Sigh* lol God really did work on my patience this weekend but you know what im so thankful he did! a lot of things are going on..a lot of things going on..and oh the hurt for some of the girls and what they are going through..*sigh* God is working and sadly so is satan...he makes it so easy for those girls to realize that ....they can have the time of their "lives" And no consequences will come out of it..sadly we all know thats one big lie....
I gave my testimony infront of atleast 404 snow campers and like...200 0r 300 staff..they were the most nerve racking moments b4 ...but then when i got to it..wow God gave me so much peace..and thats when i realized he really wanted me doing it..not for myself, but of course to bring glory to him..which i love to do...UGH! SO GOOD God showed me so much of my stupidity this weekend im so..happy :)

Im ganna be around

i've been quite frustrated lately..if you havent figured it out..it continues to get worse seemingly daily..I Know God has a handle on it..sometimes I just wish i could *shrugs* anyway...I decided today i really enjoyed sitting in the back of the class room not the front...one day in the back is just beautiful...2 bad it's only 1 day..anyway its been a pretty bad day but God is good and..i trust him..
I wrote this poem and wanted to share it
Holding on to the branch weakly
I ask for forgiveness,begging meekly
Lord my heart was torn in two
The only one I should serve is you
I grasped the branch with all I had
The memories, they all hurt so bad
Like crashing wind and rain it slashed
My heart felt like garbage, it felt trashed
I grabbed the sword and cut through
Looking for the good, what was true
Ask for forgiveness and it is yours
He is always knocking on those doors
To your heart, let him have it all


Thank you Lord

do it

http://www.formspring.me/StaticMadness

Our God

Who loves life more then our God? NO ONE..ok so yeah..lately life hasn't been what exactly id call enjoyable..but w/e it happens right?? So i've been thinking about Romans 8:28,29..all things word together for Good for those who have been called, and you know...(Read the verses lol) I thought it was so cool..and a great reminder..[[ALL]] things! Word for [[good]]...ok so not just the things we like, not just the things we have control over.. ALL things happen so that we are brought closer to God..and I just really enjoyed that today.. I have been dealing with stuff but our God is so good and i just wanted to update that :)<3

VaLeNtInEs DaY

Life has been:::
Crazy amazing upsetting fantastic uber fake realistic trying confusing loving distant and passionate! YEAH TAKE THAT...*laughs* Ok legit this week has been one of the craziest weeks ive ev er had..but I know that God has a plan in all of it...my God everyday blog..is becoming a God...when i can blog :( It's sad but i hope they know i go to wolbi and it's a bit harder then i thought to do it everyday. Snow camp this weekend was fabulous. Jenn came back, and :) She loved the pranks we pulled (go to Youtube.com/MuffinMadness12 to watch that ;) It's fabulous stuff..anyway 47 people got saved that they know of...so :)
Praise be to God..
Im going to bed loves
xXx

1 Corinthians 1 - Passage Lookup - New International Version - BibleGateway.com

1 Corinthians 1 - Passage Lookup - New International Version - BibleGateway.com: "4I always thank God for you because of his grace given you in Christ Jesus. 5For in him you have been enriched in every way—in all your speaking and in all your knowledge— 6because our testimony about Christ was confirmed in you. 7Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed. 8He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ. 9God, who has called you into fellowship with his Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful."

Right now

Oh,
God i am so frustrated and hurting..i am so lost in the right thing to do. when i do the right things people seem to get so angry..when i try not to use people, and not lead them on Lord it's as if the whole thing was my fault anyway. God i just want to do whats right in your eyes, and Lord you know my heart better then anyone, even I. So Lord please take this pain, and if you see it fit for the pain to stay, show me Lord what I am to do with it. because it hurts so bad....I am just...lost in confusion, but you Oh Lord are the God of organization not chaos..bring me to my knees..rid me of myself oh Lord...
*Sigh*

Frustrated...Why wait?

So many things are going on in my mind..and im questioning so much…right now I just..i don’t know. I lost friends, im losing friends and I just..I don’t know. My grandpa is having surgery tomorrow on his heart. I am not excited about that..Im really hoping not to have to go to another funeral. My mom lost her mother and I don’t think she will be ok if she loses her father. School has been stressful and I feel like im being judged a lot. I am working on that feeling, and trying to keep my mind on things of God, but Oh Lord I am so frustrated and you know that…They are making my friends take out their dreads…and I am quite worried that Gauges will be the next thing to go..if they make gauges go..I am to afraid I wont be able to deal w/ it..do you know how much money I spent on these….*Sigh* I guess I Shouldn’t think about it right now. That doesn’t make anything better… but anyway yeah…Im working snack shack again this weekend when I REALLY…kinda wanted to counsel my snow camper from last year but *shrugs* I guess that is where God wants me…and I can deal with that. My dc is gone this week and it feels like a major hole L I love her lots and miss her but she will be back Saturday (so LONG) I’ve done a lot of my school work and gotten it in on time and it isn’t in my grades yet and so they have gone down and im upset about that..I am going to have a talk with them…I am going to have to..I cannot risk failing again especially when im trying hard…why does it feel like the school is against me…. L
UGHS ……..I need attitude help. I just want to tell the whole admin office how I feel..and that’s so wrong

worky turkey

Word:::
So today..a good friend of mine left school...and he wont be coming back :( that makes me really sad..im not going to lie =\ but what are you going to do..*Shrug* I got to go to my "little bro's" concert last night and let me tell you what it was so great. Scapegoat was there 2. they are a christian hardcore band. fabulous!! God blessed me so much, and really my heart was just so ministered to :) God has just been so faithful lately, full of my friends are leaving, things are happening I wish werent but still he is enough and oh it gets to be SO much sometimes but God is just so...awesome and faithful and i am so thankful for it. a friend of mine left for a week today and it really hurt, i just...i miss her a lot lol..shes my dc, my discipler and she really just loves me and you can tell :) So yeah....its going to be an interesting week but..God's got this ;)

W00t

W-O-W has it ever been crazy around here...I wish i could completely explain it to you ...but oy vey..friends are leaving..some not forever some...actually forever..as frustrating as that is...*sigh* It happens so it happens. Im having a hard time w/ that one. but we touched on it today in Galatians..when you try talking to a friend and they just wont listen..it's hard and it hurts but it's not your choice..you just have to keep going, keep doing what God has you to do! We have no choice in the matter..and even though it's hard our God is so good he promises us so many things *sigh* I've been working out much in my head lately..fighting the urge to call myself completely insane..but let me tell you it's hard..but maybe that's a sign of being sane all the same...
Im random and need to do school work <3>