Right!

lately i have been struggling w/ a lot of things..and i am going to be very real right now and say that....dieting..and making myself throw up is one of them..and I really..have just been over come with this..i feel gross..and ugly..and not believing the promises that God has for me..and how foolish it is for me to believe these things...

I was really convicted to read isaiah 43...and ephesians...Gods faithfulness and then who I am in him...Oh praise him for his goodness and my ridiculousness....YA
(the poem is one that i wrote today..really just talking about my struggles and whats going on in my life)

ya...I want to be so ...in love w/ Gods word that I can tell truth from lies..and i know i can tell truth from lies but i want to believe the truth rather then the lies..and that has been a huge problem with me..and...if i could just believe them it would make it so much better...for me to be able to trust Christ instead of believing the things that I shouldn't...he promised me he would never leave me or forsake me and i am so thankful for that..he promises me that he loves me....he DIED FOR ME!! And he rose again...

Oh PRAISE HIM

update major

it has been 80 days since i cut 80 80 80 80 80 80 80 80 YES 80! HOW EXCITING!!! I cannot even believe it, i mean..of course I can my God is faithful and he has made it so hat i have power enough in him to do this....:-D PRAISE THE LORD...oh man! so
I decided to ....make this 80 day excitement i've also decided to stop drinking soda...so that starts today and...i am excited to make this change. i am also going to try to do 30 minutes of exorcise everyday. i already did 33 today, and i want to do some more when my mom gets home. I want to be healthy..:)
I also have decided im going to be myself..or well better put, who God has made me to be.. I am done trying to make other people happy...it isnt the way i was made to live, and i refuse to do it :) ANY LONGER :-D
God you are so good, and you are the only voice that i should be listening to. Lord I know you put many things into my life that I dont particularly like, but Lord you are in control of it all and i am so thankful for that. God thank you for giving me people in my life who really love me. Lord who really care for who i am and what ive been through. and God i thank you that you love me regardless of all ive done to hurt you Lord, all i've done to ruin your name. You are so forgiving and so amazing. Lord help me forgive those who hurt me God, who all they want to do is put me down. I know that isn't your will Lord so i ask for those people to realize what they are doing to themselves by acting like that towards people, and lord help them grow in you
thank you Lord

lifting up prayer for the stumps

God right now i come before you on behalf of Randi and Graham Stump. Lord Randi is hurting so badly right now Lord, you know Graham's status..and Lord. the doctors say he wont wake up and if he does, that in itself will be a miricle, Lord that if he does he will only be able to "survive" God we believe in such a bigger God then that. Lord we believe that you can heal him completely, lord you've done it so many times..God show them..who you are Lord i ask you to give the family comfort and peace beyond ALL this world could understand. God that you would show them your love like never before.

He is so faithful

TODAY
was a great day! I Went to the island..and got to see my friends! Oh how exciting to see how God is working in the lives of my friends on the island, and in these teen girls lives!! HOW THEY CHANGE.. It was really really cool! got to sit under the teaching of wise men of God..so good just to hear the lessons again. i've heard some of them before but oh what God teaches you when you are really listening and want to learn from his word..it was so key to me today...
:::that all I can do is abide...that's all I have strength to do..and even that strength is from him::: praise the Lord that he has such power and strength..to give us power and strength <3.....
Going home tomorrow...I don't want to. id love to stay in North Hudson forever, or hey maybe at the island with my friends for the last 2 weeks..but that isn't what God has for me..and I am excited to see what the rest of the summer brings. and the good God has in it for me :)...for I KNOW he is faithful..even when im not :)
<3

I have a question, and id so appreciate it if you could help me... My sister is living with her ex's bf's family..the dad gets drunk and hits on her...and they do pot...
I told her that she needs to leave...she says she hates me and she says that shes going to leave and never talk to me again.....
*sigh*
I dont know if im doing the right thing

God you are so good

W-o-W i dont even really know what to say...except thank you Lord, and forgive me for being so foolish as to think I could cling any less..Lord that I would think..I could possibly step away from that bubble Lord and be ok..that I had it "all under control" Lord thank you so much for humbeling me and showing me that in fact i dont have it under control Lord and i will probably ALWAYS need to cling on to you for that. God you've been so good to me..Lord and i am again just so sorry..*sigh*
Lord you...are so good and so strong.
Thank you for being the strength that keeps me going Lord. Thank you for being the one who loves me when no one else does. and lord the one who loves me more then anyone else COULD love me even if they tried. Lord i just...i cant imagine anyone loving me more then you, and i thank you so much for allowing me to see that today Lord. the pure...love that you have for me God, that isn't selfish or Lustful. I am so thankful for that Lord. Help me love you the same Lord. with all of my heart. willing to do anything for you Lord. Not wanting to back down when it gets hard Lord.
thank you again Lord...and right now Lord i want to give my expectations to you. God it's so hard when my hear thinks so many things ...oh Lord you are so good and i ask that you keep my mind stayed on you because that is were the peace is..