yep

Have you ever been ready for something to be over so badly..and yet part of you wants it to continue...*shrug* I am ready to be done word of life that is for sure. So i wonder to myself..why if it's so important to finish well...is it so hard..and maybe that's just why...*Shrug* I don't know i feel like things are going crazy like im in the way and that i just cant do the right things..i frustrate everyone and i should just quit trying..is it satan or truth?! *Shrug* I have so much to pack and i feel like im going to forget something and it's going to be to bad because i have no where to put it ya know...*shrug* O well i guess it doesn't really matter...
I was reading Romans the other day and it just...wow it just hit me hardcore..but like *shrug* i don't know..i get it how good God is and such but like..sometimes..i don't want to care and that is so wrong i know..
I've been having mad issues sleeping..and so ive been taking sleeping pillz..and they've been working really great quite honestly but im getting sick of the effects and so i think im not going to take them anymore..and im a bit nervous about telling my dc..and im a bit nervous about not being able to sleep....BLAH

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Frustrated? Yes....
Ready to be done? yes...
I just feel sometimes like i need to get out of here..it's like that when so many things are on our minds and we just cant seem to get them out..when you
are just so sick of all the wrong that you do..and even when you try to do the right thing you feel...like you'll never accomplish the right thing. im there right
now and it really sucks..it's like im trying to fight this battle...im letting God have it but then i screw up..when i dont even think...*sigh* anyway..i just..im not
sure what's wrong with me and why my attitude is so crappy but im getting sick of it ....My "friends" Dont even try to encourage me it seems..and when i do
mess up all they seem to enjoy is bringing me down kinda laughing it up you know? *Sigh* Im ready to be done Lord....
In other news..today was work day on word of life island..and let me tell you something..i was so angry that i had to go..bad night last night and just fought
to have a good attitude..and you know i tried to do it by my own bootstraps..but how foolish of me...to think that i could do it.....
*Sigh* Lord take this horrible attitude away from me. Im done fighting you God, im done doing the things my flesh wants to do. Thank you for people who
point out my problems to me Lord and show me more and more what it's like to be you even though i think i hate it...

xD

Ok...guys i am so so so bored and really kinda tired..I got to hang out in the sun with some people and it was really exciting because i had a lot of fun with it..i got some tanning oil and i got to use it..im kinda not sure if it did anything but w/e <3>

I HAVE A LOT OF NOTHING TO DOOOOOOOO

Weekend

Absolutely nothing...
the end ....ha

Epic? I think yes

Alright...so thursday started off like this ::getting excited classes almost over, READY 2 go get my air cast for my ankle ( i hurt my ankle pretty badly) and getting ready to go to ambers car. Sheila, John and I :)...well well well..we get in the car..sheila starts driving and we hear a thud..uh oh..we all look at eachother...Sheila hit the fire hydrant *sigh* she tries to get unstuck..finally she does and we look at the damage..the fender o dear...well...we drive off to the machanic to see what they can do. he says it has to be back by 2..not going to happen...so we decide to go to e-town and get my stuff and see if theres someone down there that will look at it. SOoooo we get to etown get my stuff and talk to another mechanic who just laughs at Sheila and tells her sucks to be you..so we sigh and drive off to plattsburgh. While in plattsburgh a cop pulls us over..we couldn't figure out why..BUT THEN he says "i pulled you over cuz you aren't wearing your seatbelt" OH SHEILA -_-..(in new hampshire you dont have to wear your seatbelt when drving) praise the Lord she only got a warning...so she wasnt very happy..after that 2cars almost hit us and we almost got into an accident with my best friend -_-..*upside* sheila found her debit card and im getting a new phone..haha so after spending some time @ the mall w/ my best friend, sheila and john we decided it was time to go back home...we almost got hit by a semi, and then we almost ran out of gas..*sigh* after that lol we got back to schroon lake and sheila got pulled over again...for running 2 stop signs (which she didnt even run) ANYWAY..-_-...she got a warning yet again...(God is SOoOoOooO Good!!!)ha...so we stopped got some gas and had some ice cream to calm ourselves down...it was...SooOo epic..oh my word OH And before we got to schroon lake we had to turn around because my best friends car wouldnt start..-_- lol...good times good times <3