starting life anew...

Maybe this is  a little bit of an exaggeration, seeing as I mean...I only got engaged, and moved, but still..life has been pretty crazy lol..
 YES THAT'S RIGHT! I got engaged on December 7th. what a crazy thing am i right?!?! I feel so....idk how i feel honestly ...lol
well anyway....it was beautiful and I cannot wait to be Mrs.Sarah Ford. what a fun thing. Sarah Lynn Ford. I love it already ;)
 anyways....
I moved from Ny, to Maine, and now...to Connecticut. I feel like I am just going to continue moving forever (ok ok i hope to settle myself down for more then 6months at a time but for right now this will just have to do ;) ) ...I am so thankful though to have the room i currently have. for the 6 months before Nicholas and I get married....I feel like a loser I really need to set all my stuff up, so that I can not be in the way or making a mess of the room that I am living in. currently there is just a massive amount of clothes and boxes...-_-...i do not approve.
ANYWAY..( i am rambling because i am so tired )
tonight I got to go to my first Justified youth church with my fiance. He is the youth pastor. It was so exciting to see teens listen to him, and to see how much they loved him was cool :) I also loved hearing him preach. That was probably the most exciting for me just to be able to hear his passion for the gospel. hmm...anyway
 I am going to be living in CT now, and i am very interested to see what God has planned for Nicholas and i in this comming New year.
 I am so thankful He brought us hear safely to start together..
 Have i mentioned I am excited to be his wife ;)
 ....I am putting myself to bed before i make even less sence then i do now

Rant(ish)

Hmm...

Let me tell you sometimes I get so frustrated with the way things work out... Friends betray friends, bfs and gfs cheat on each other ... So much has been happening lately o-0 oy

 My friends found out I am probably leaving soon and now they are starting to freak out ... Fighting with each other nothing good quite honestly... Blah I just want them to enjoy their little time left with me instead they are freaking out :/ blah

... It's ok everything will resolve itself I am sure.. Now I will watch walking dead until I am the walking dead ha 

Thanksgiving weekend

This weekend was a lot of fun... I really enjoyed spending time with my boyfriend and his family! He is an awesome guy... And his family is so wonderful :D 

    We went from Maine to Connecticut on Thursday morning...got there at 2:30ish, then spent the night and the next day in ct. On Saturday we decided to go back to Maine, and it took significantly less time.. :)

We hung out went to church and then he left me :( 

 He will be back this weekend but ugh lol!!! 

Anyway, I love him!!! 

Vaca

Oh my life.. It is time for vacation and I cannot even wait!! I am quite excited to be with my boyfriend, and then to be with his family :) I am so excited! I am done with work until Sunday...  Monday I will be going back to work, but let me tell you I am ready to do nothing but rest relax and love Nicholas :D I am praying for good weather  so that he can come up and we can drive back safely :) 

     <3 man I love him! 

Well... I am going to watch some walking dead until Amberlyn is here so that I can put y grill together! I am so excited!!! 

Well...off to give myself nightmares :)

Life changes...

Wow! So much has changed since I last wrote in this (obviously.. It's almost 2014) ... 

I've moved to Maine, got a boyfriend who is Amazing to say the least, working at Arby's and... Well pretty much just living life...

This last week has been so stressful though and sometimes I just... Idk! I try to help people and I am the one who gets screwed! I would like to name a book I write about my life "yes it is true no good deed goes unpunished!" Because it is pretty much the story of life.. *shugs*

While life is frustrating I am thankful I atleast have the ability to be frustrated... I Could be dead and then I wouldn't feel anything and be no help to anyone... O_o  (feeling morbid tonight) 

     Long story short I hate when you think you do the right thing for someone and then it turns out you were so wrong, and well it just doesn't turn out the way you expected -_- I fail at life sometimes lol.. But at the end of the day... My friends are both still alive and well I see my boyfriend in 2 sleeps so life is good.. Who knows what tomorrow will bring but i am going to trust God that whatever happens no matter how frustrating it may be, that he has my back, my front and my sides .... Oy Lord help me from screwing up more then I already have... 

Wwwdgipmp

MAN

i just cant give up this blog..i dont write on it a lot but i feel like when I do it's something special! I am watching my nephew this morning...with about...2hrs of sleep lol interrupted at that.. Right now he is watching the Backyardagains. I like it...It's pretty funny to me..and keeps him entertained so mean..whats wrong with it? Except for the fact that...well...He is just watching t.v and someone told me that they dont really learn anything from t.v..which I hope isnt true..because they seem to be blaming enough of how children and teens act on the media so why..or how could they say that it doesnt effect them??!?! .....
*Shrugs* Oh well I guess you just cant win with "Them" you know..the ones who say it..lol ...anyway that's my lovely little rant for the day <3

LOSER

https://home.wol.org/giving/giveto/Sarah+Thompson+(0YF3G4)
ok ....you may be wondering what THATS ^ about...WELL GUYS ((I know I haven't been on here since November...)) FORGIVE ME...lol but I will tell you about the link.
I am not going to Davis Bible college...infact a huge change of mind and heart..I am going back to the word of life bible institute ....in almost 8days...*laughs* for the 2nd yr program..never thought that would happen!!!
[[anyway!]] ....I am going to Quebec for a missions trip..to share the gospel with the people of Quebec. and I am very excited to say out of the 700 i need..I have already raised 600!! How good is God?!?!? ((SO GOOD)) It's been cool learning about Gods faithfulness through all of this and just really excited to see what else he has to teach me!!!! So if you feel led to be part of the ministry I get to have with the people of Quebec...click that link and send me some support!!!!
I got a new tattoo..that was fun...not all people are a fan but im not doing it for people! It is a sparrow..and it's on my neck..check out Luke 12:6-7 good stuff <3
hopefully i will be on here..more im such a loser thanks to all who read

Davis?

Davis bible college?
am i going to you.....stay tuned

"Humility is not thinking less of yourself but thinking of yourself less." Just something to think about.

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Replacing Lies with truth

So...this web blog i read (Lies young women believe) is having this thing where you can write a blog for them..so i am going to take a swing at it and see what happens :)
:::Replacing lies with truth:::
*It is completely impossible to REPLACE lies with truth..unless you know the truth (John 3:16)
Coming from a home where love wasn’t the number one thing happening…I have been exposed to a lot of lies. Lies like “You’ll never be good enough”, “you are disgusting”, “No one could ever love you”, “you are scum”. All of my life this was the “truth” set before me…so when I came to the saving knowledge of the Lord…when his TRUE love filled me…and there was truth set before me I didn’t know what to do with it. Even though now, I had the truth of Jesus and his ultimate sacrifice for me…His transforming love…I was still stuck in lies of not good enough, not pretty enough…..and I started cutting to deal with my anger and my sadness….every emotion I had that wasn’t a positive one went into cutting.
This went on for a while until I started going to a bible institute…where people loved me for me and I thought this was the answer….people loving me must be ok because God loves me..so it all clicked together for me…..but when someone would get angry at me, or I didn’t do something right..I’d get upset and run right back to cutting.. I still wasn’t believing in Gods truth that he had promised me…perfect peace, forgiveness, love everlasting and an abundant life. Abundant lives aren’t filled with hatred, bitterness and jealousy…which is what I was dealing with. With my friends and my family.
When I actually got into God’s word..and looked at the truths that he had put in there for me to read..for me to BELIEVE..that is when I finally started understanding that I could beat this sin. And the other sins that I had been dealing with because I CAN do all things through Christ..because HE gives me the strength to.
One specific truth that has been so big to me for a long time (Since I started living for Christ) is found in Isaiah 26:3 “you keep him in perfect because whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts you.” My whole world can be crashing down..my fault or maybe not my fault, but regardless..If I am thinking on the truths that Jesus has given me..the truth that is God..the truth of love forgiveness and his perfect holiness…How can I not be in perfect peace? Complete peace that passes understanding of this world? On the other side though, if we are completely thinking of ourselves, and how we screwed up of course we won’t be peaceful…we are thinking of ourselves..finite foolish creatures.
The only way to replace lies with truth is knowing and dwelling on truth. Nothing else will do it.

is it worth it now

Lord..i dont know.....
i really dont know what to do..i spent time in your word tonight Lord..cried to you and begged you...God i dont know WHY you are allowing this to happen I am trying so hard God...
*Sigh*
this fight is so hard
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OH ANNE

OH! How I love Anne of green gables..SO MUCH!! And oh how much i love spaggeti ...and soda and cupcakes...OH AND SPENDING TIME w/ FRIENDS...i dont love any of those (Sept friends) as much as anne of green gables though :-D LOL!! I had such a great time w/ Tara and Crystal last night into this morning!!!
we got to the house and we decided to start working on the pumpkins..we quickly changed our minds though and decided if we made cupcakes then we could have them later..and that was just to good to pass up you understand!! :) So...we got to work on the cupcakes..once they were safe in the oven we started cutting open our pumpkins and loving making these crazy little jack-o lanterns.. :-D
I made mine look like the Canadian flag..and then i tried to make Anne of green gables..but oh let me tell you that flopped....i can barely even tell the lettering says anne..:) LOL but it's ok..we had SO much fun doing it..it makes up for the ridiculousness of mine haha
after we did the pumpkins we decided it was time for dinner..and it was time to start watching anne of green gables...(we had decided to watch all of them) ok..this was like at 11..i think? Well let me just tell you i didnt get done watching it until 6:30 am! LOL
Ok..i forgot a really IMPORTANT FACT.....we had to strain and pick out Pumpkin seeds from stinking 8 pumpkins and then from the ones WE had...we decided we wanted to cook them but had to stinking wait for them to dry out..well you know me..you know that i dont enjoy waiting for natural things to happen..so i grabbed a hair dryer and decided to go craazZyyYy!! LoL WHICH HEY just to let you know IT WORKED and it was great ;)
anyway..so yes i spent my night and morning watching Anne of green gables and then the sequal and then the continuing story...
:-D
GOOD TIMES!!!!!!!!!!!

Right!

lately i have been struggling w/ a lot of things..and i am going to be very real right now and say that....dieting..and making myself throw up is one of them..and I really..have just been over come with this..i feel gross..and ugly..and not believing the promises that God has for me..and how foolish it is for me to believe these things...

I was really convicted to read isaiah 43...and ephesians...Gods faithfulness and then who I am in him...Oh praise him for his goodness and my ridiculousness....YA
(the poem is one that i wrote today..really just talking about my struggles and whats going on in my life)

ya...I want to be so ...in love w/ Gods word that I can tell truth from lies..and i know i can tell truth from lies but i want to believe the truth rather then the lies..and that has been a huge problem with me..and...if i could just believe them it would make it so much better...for me to be able to trust Christ instead of believing the things that I shouldn't...he promised me he would never leave me or forsake me and i am so thankful for that..he promises me that he loves me....he DIED FOR ME!! And he rose again...

Oh PRAISE HIM

Day 2

W-O-W
So...today is my 2nd day doing this...settingcaptivesfree.com eating safe thingie..let me just tell you..even though it is a little more difficult then I thought it would be..it's going well...forcing me to really cling to Christ regardless of whats going on...
Yesterday....was a half day...all food=half portions..that was ok..but hard...today is liquid day..i only get to have 1 real meal..the rest is juices, you know water..LIQUIDS....
I slept through breakfast but woke up and had some water..juice for lunch and now i am having some chai tea latte...except its cold ;) woooow baby!! How i change things up lol..so obviously i choose dinner to be the real meal...idk what i am going to eat yet..because i am going bowling..so that will be splended!
^_^ I get to see my sister and I am so pumped. i am bringing my camera ....i have missed her so much and i get to see some old friends....it's going to be interesting..i need to live my life the way Christ has shown me how to live...
:)
<3>

FWD: jamesmacdonald: If submitting to what God allows and not giving up was simple, everyone would be doing it.

Absolutly no reason

*sigh* I dont really know why I am here..i feel like no one wants me here, and i feel like i am just being hated on. It is really ridiculous quite honestly and I am sick of it. I wont leave though..I need to get my computer fixed, my permit is coming in the mail, and a lot of other things are going on that i need to make sure happen...but leaving and making sure that im happy isnt one of them.....
I am going to my good friends wedding ...in about 6 weeks...-_- TOO LONG!! I cannot wait to go to Ohio and see them..I may even be able to see a friend of mine living in Indiana..so i am pretty pumped about that. even if not though it'll be good!
.....I am trying to keep a positive side about being home..but its very quickly losing its step..I want my bible back that my friend has at school so badly..i live 45 minutes away and guess what i still dont have it and shes been at school for...a week now
*Sigh* i havent had it for 3

A WEEK thats changed my life...hUH?!

W-O-W....
can i please just tell you how this week has completely SHAKEN any idea i had about this year and how it was going to go?....
Today(last week) I was so excited to go back to word of life..I was shaking w/ anticipation, ready to get out of this house and packed already! Monday came...( I wanted to leave and be there wednesday) I got a call...and i really thought nothing of the $ aspect..i thought oh...it'll be taken care of. i mean..in all honesty i've never had to worry about that..to much..so i talked to my mom and ya we just figured id all work out so i was still ready to go..ya God ya..im going on wednesday yes i am....
Tuesday-in the morning thought it was all figured out and was excited still all packed, still ready to go...Then my mom told me that night i couldn't go...and my heart crashed..I mean i think legit crashed...I had myself a good ol' self pitty party...because lets face it..if i had a choice to be home..or there....(id be anywhere else but home) ...
wed-well the rest of the week..I am not going to lie..it has been one of the hardest weeks of my life.. DONT GET ME WRONG...this isn't me just whining because i am not going to wol..( i am ) BUT being home isnt...great...
All this week i have faught (and still am honestly) fighting feelings of anger,doubt(as to this is the right thing) come on ...God you sure (YOU"VE BEEN THERE 2),jealousy...and feeling like people are forgetting me...
But....today at church ..and through psalm 86,psalm 145...God has just really been showing me how GOOD he is..and how he LOVES me and how he has plans for my good..and these things are so good for us to know..but when you...live it, when you feel it..its completely different. Now please dont misunderstand me. I KNOW People are going through things a lot worse then me. If i could stop and explain all the circumstances to you...well i probably wouldn't but..that's ok ...regardless of the circumstances..God is still there showing us who we are and who HE IS ...(that's the better one).....
NOW WHAT I'VE LEARNED (this week) CAUSE I HAVE...A LOT :::
1. I need to stop complaining- I go through things i don't like..and instead of looking for what God is doing in it..i sit there and say this isn't fair, i dont deserve it and blah....

2.(Praising God in all things) Wooo...I NEED to do that..and it goes so much better when i do...

3.Trials/problems (yes dr.wicks) Really are our little buddies...they are showing me who God is..and how much strength he has...and how weak I am

4.God wants to make me more like his son....and he is going to do what it takes to make that happen. some of us learn easier then others..(i've never been a fast learner) LOL
-i am not saying God's punishing me...btw....I can choose to be thankful or complain

5.I cannot count on people....I shouldn't count on people..(this is something very hard for me) when i hurt..i want to talk to people about it..i want people to be around so I DONT FEEL the pain....but that's not the way it should be.... I AM COMPLETE in CHRIST..not in YOU *whoever is reading* lol... :)
-God is my strength and my salvation....(not my best friend...not my mom...not my brother, my sister....or Mrs.Bennett) (had to add her in) .... :)

...OK Legit..im done rambling....but I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW God has such great things planned for me..and It's still going to be a struggle for me but I KNOW he is able..and I am able w/ him *phil 4:13*
..:)

Pain

Lord,
This hurts me a lot..and i know you know that. and Lord i am so thankful that you do not waste my pain. God i pray that you would allow me to do well with this. Lord even though im not at the school I KNOW I can grow, and i can change..and Lord I KNOW that you are doing big things.. and that if it's your will...I will be able to go back to wol. this is only for a time and God i am so thankful that you are willing to do this for me. Lord i just.....I dont know what to do God my heart hurts so badly right now..I am lonely, i do not have Christian friends to hang out with and this is hard.....
I will continue to praise your name..because God, just because this happened doesnt mean you aren't good..I know you want me to be more and more like you Lord...and I hope and pray that I can continue growing.
Help me deal w/ this pain in a Godly way. Lord honoring to you..not myself and this stupid pain i feel...God i love you and i know you have whats best for me