Pain

Lord,
This hurts me a lot..and i know you know that. and Lord i am so thankful that you do not waste my pain. God i pray that you would allow me to do well with this. Lord even though im not at the school I KNOW I can grow, and i can change..and Lord I KNOW that you are doing big things.. and that if it's your will...I will be able to go back to wol. this is only for a time and God i am so thankful that you are willing to do this for me. Lord i just.....I dont know what to do God my heart hurts so badly right now..I am lonely, i do not have Christian friends to hang out with and this is hard.....
I will continue to praise your name..because God, just because this happened doesnt mean you aren't good..I know you want me to be more and more like you Lord...and I hope and pray that I can continue growing.
Help me deal w/ this pain in a Godly way. Lord honoring to you..not myself and this stupid pain i feel...God i love you and i know you have whats best for me