Day 2

W-O-W
So...today is my 2nd day doing this...settingcaptivesfree.com eating safe thingie..let me just tell you..even though it is a little more difficult then I thought it would be..it's going well...forcing me to really cling to Christ regardless of whats going on...
Yesterday....was a half day...all food=half portions..that was ok..but hard...today is liquid day..i only get to have 1 real meal..the rest is juices, you know water..LIQUIDS....
I slept through breakfast but woke up and had some water..juice for lunch and now i am having some chai tea latte...except its cold ;) woooow baby!! How i change things up lol..so obviously i choose dinner to be the real meal...idk what i am going to eat yet..because i am going bowling..so that will be splended!
^_^ I get to see my sister and I am so pumped. i am bringing my camera ....i have missed her so much and i get to see some old friends....it's going to be interesting..i need to live my life the way Christ has shown me how to live...
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update major

it has been 80 days since i cut 80 80 80 80 80 80 80 80 YES 80! HOW EXCITING!!! I cannot even believe it, i mean..of course I can my God is faithful and he has made it so hat i have power enough in him to do this....:-D PRAISE THE LORD...oh man! so
I decided to ....make this 80 day excitement i've also decided to stop drinking soda...so that starts today and...i am excited to make this change. i am also going to try to do 30 minutes of exorcise everyday. i already did 33 today, and i want to do some more when my mom gets home. I want to be healthy..:)
I also have decided im going to be myself..or well better put, who God has made me to be.. I am done trying to make other people happy...it isnt the way i was made to live, and i refuse to do it :) ANY LONGER :-D
God you are so good, and you are the only voice that i should be listening to. Lord I know you put many things into my life that I dont particularly like, but Lord you are in control of it all and i am so thankful for that. God thank you for giving me people in my life who really love me. Lord who really care for who i am and what ive been through. and God i thank you that you love me regardless of all ive done to hurt you Lord, all i've done to ruin your name. You are so forgiving and so amazing. Lord help me forgive those who hurt me God, who all they want to do is put me down. I know that isn't your will Lord so i ask for those people to realize what they are doing to themselves by acting like that towards people, and lord help them grow in you
thank you Lord

I LOVE IT

Today was such a fantastic day! and i spent most of it with my best friend Katelyn!! She came and got me and we headed to the beach!! It was SO beautiful! (even if it was a little chilly) we lay there for a bit and just listened to people, and had little laughs here and there *shrug* after about an hour of that, we decided that swimming wasn't the best because of the wind..(and all i brought was a blanket and pillow...not a towel) so...we got up and decided to grab some pizza, popcorn and a movie! We did so and went to her grandmothers and watched tim burton's 9! It was pretty cute..you could definitely tell a tim burton film! After the movie, i had the bright idea of going to the grave yard and chilling there, and reading some grave stones...so of course WE DID
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so yeah...this is katelyn and the "Hand" grave..we couldn't help ourselves..ya maybe we are jerks but W/E they are dead and they love us doing this..because you know what when im dead..TAKE ALL THE PICS OF MY GRAVE YOU WANNA BABY cause im not going to be here...<3>
Yeah...so this is me by some cool cross one...yah...after that we went to another grave yard that's actually..like 4 min from my house...and it's HUGE..i never realized how big it was b4...and we went to the very back to start..and there was like...a machine to dig new graves..i wanted a picture near it but Katelyn said no way :) LOL
it was so fun and i am so thankful for my friend...lol .....
After that we came back to my house and just chilled, listened to music and played a cemetery game on her computer for like 40 min. after that she decided to go..and that's been my day :)
Tomorrow is church and i am so looking foward to it!

crazyness

I miss those people more then life ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ <3
wow..God has been teaching me so much *shakes head*i love it so much but at the time it seems so painful..but isnt that learning ;) ...lol
I am so excited to see God and his good through all of this..it still hurts a lot ..but i am so thankful for people like the bennetts..that show me the good, and who hang out with me and just get my mind off the hard things..lol
Hes been showing me so much just lately about what he does for us and what he can do through us if we give him our whole lives..if we dont just give him bits and pieces..like oh yeah Lord you can have my ...time but not my love life, or Lord those friends..they are....well I know they arent the best Lord but.. *shakes head*
Im learning SO much about his sovereignty and his love...