OK! So today we had our meeting for Spanish Open Air Evangelism..the best way to explain it is..we will be working w/ spanish people, familes, churches, and other things in NYC and NJ I have never been more excited...I am so pumped to see God do amazing things through our team! :) I am going to begin working again on not being hurt so easily..and guarding my heart because Im doing a bad job again -_-.It gets really frustrating you know..when you think your doing a good job and then all of a sudden it starts failing...like yesterday *sigh* When we had to hold hands @ church and..it was a bad move I should have moved and walked away but kevin and i held hands..and then when I was sleeping that day in the car he was like"oh princess sarah wont you please wake up"I just...I hate being like this...I really do..this is not the girl I am..and I had a thought yesterday which MUST have been from God....Im going to get someone so much better then him...If he isn't the one for me..if he is I dont know why I like him so much..because quite honestly he hurts me a lot more then he makes me laugh...but truthfully I do like him a lot so we will see..idk *screams in pillow* i tell you..now we are going on ministry..and today he just said something funny you know but it hurt..and I just..I need to get my head back in the "game" So to speak..we are spending all summer together I am not going to let this stupid cruch get int he way of my God...and the amazing things that can happen for him *sigh* I just cant let it happen....It's going to be hard but apparently i need to stop hanging out w/ him so much again...maybe it will make things better, easier....Especially if we both come back next year..which currently (I think) we both plan to do..so..we will see what God has for me..I am quite excited to tell you the truth...it's so many emotions so much....drama playing out in my head and truthfully i wish it wasnt happening..but guess what..it Is and I know w/ God I can do all things so I shouldn't even be worrying about it.. Im not going to say anything though because i really...really dont want it to be weird....*sighs* hehhgdhghggkjdhfjd; (thats how i feel)
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