Wednesday, April 15, 2009

and through these crazy times..

*sigh*
let me just explain how frustrated i am currently..everything that's going on is slamming me so many ways and i just..I don't know what to do anymore..God is doing this all for a reason..and I know that but its like I cant figure it out...I dont know why...I've gone through and will continue ..to go through....amazingly un fun conversations..IM SO STINKING FRUSTRATED w/ things going on and there is nothing I can do..hopefully...tommorrow is hopefully will be the end of a lot of things going on....!
I really wish all of this could just be over..ive found some good friends but ive also lost some..and that hurts more then a lot of people will ever know..I erased my first facebook and decided to make another one..I just couldnt deal w/ the junk anmore..it's not worth it to allow things of such .......stupidity to continue on...I Will not allow it..and if i dont want to be bitter..(which I done) i need to take myself out of the situation..I am continueing my walk with God and not letting other things change that..although im not going to lie..a lot of situations are making me wish sometimes I didnt care about doing the right thing..I wish that I could just let whatever goes on go on sometimes and forget about the right thing to do...
you would keep a lot more friends that way...i suppose they wouldnt be true friends but...non the less friends..heh of course this isnt my true....thought but i wish i could think that way sometimes..*slams head*
xXx

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