Frustrated...Why wait?

So many things are going on in my mind..and im questioning so much…right now I just..i don’t know. I lost friends, im losing friends and I just..I don’t know. My grandpa is having surgery tomorrow on his heart. I am not excited about that..Im really hoping not to have to go to another funeral. My mom lost her mother and I don’t think she will be ok if she loses her father. School has been stressful and I feel like im being judged a lot. I am working on that feeling, and trying to keep my mind on things of God, but Oh Lord I am so frustrated and you know that…They are making my friends take out their dreads…and I am quite worried that Gauges will be the next thing to go..if they make gauges go..I am to afraid I wont be able to deal w/ it..do you know how much money I spent on these….*Sigh* I guess I Shouldn’t think about it right now. That doesn’t make anything better… but anyway yeah…Im working snack shack again this weekend when I REALLY…kinda wanted to counsel my snow camper from last year but *shrugs* I guess that is where God wants me…and I can deal with that. My dc is gone this week and it feels like a major hole L I love her lots and miss her but she will be back Saturday (so LONG) I’ve done a lot of my school work and gotten it in on time and it isn’t in my grades yet and so they have gone down and im upset about that..I am going to have a talk with them…I am going to have to..I cannot risk failing again especially when im trying hard…why does it feel like the school is against me…. L
UGHS ……..I need attitude help. I just want to tell the whole admin office how I feel..and that’s so wrong