ANGRY

hey! At least I told it someone who can keep a secret. I could have told TJ. It would have been all over campus by last night! furthermore, I'm moving on with my life. I don't really think you get it! My weakness is that I care too much. So to compensate I've decided that I don't care. Here are the exact words I gave Kevin. I give a crap about you, but I don't care about you anymore. If you ruin your life on other guys like Jef, I'm just gonna sit back and say "I told you so". I'll still be here, but I'm not gonna dive to deep into your life anymore. I'm not gonna worry about your personal life. You said you wanted to be friends. I like being acquaintances better. Then we dn' have to worry about talking too much.

Furthermore this is some of the crap that I'm talking about! "Why do you need to talk about me?" Oh boo hoo! Woe is me! Grow up. I mean that int he nicest way possible. First of all, Kevin asked about the reason I came up, "if it involved a certain somebody". Next time get your facts. I also knew that you would pull the God card. You really don't want to change. If you did you would have started by now. You are the same Sarah as last spring. That is the problem. Changing (just like salvation) begins with a conscious decision to turn from your sins. I've started realizing the need for change, and the need for God to change that. I also don't think that you know what grace really is!

Don't take this as an offensive letter and disregard it (which I'm sure will happen!). I'm telling this because I hate you. I'm telling you this because I love you. I do. Maybe it is changing, but I still hold you up to the same standard as I've always had. I still give a crap, and will be saddened upon your hurt, but I'm looking to be too involved in your life anymore. I'm too dangerous for you, and you are too dangerous for me. It works both ways.

May you grow in the grace and knowledge (truly grow, not just simmer) of our Lord Jesus Christ,

Michael Beauharnois






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