Isaiah 26:3,4

"You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you.Trust in the LORD forever,
for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal"

He keeps ME in perfect peace when my mind is stayed on him...when I just trust in my heart that he is in control..when I realize that things going on aren't going to change because I want them to..when I realize hes the one who can change things not me...thats when my mind will be in perfect peace...because when your thinking of the God who is in control of everything..the God who loves you even though he knows every stupid thing about you..How could you not be in peace??...He is our rock eternal..When things get rocky..you get on that rock and your not going to be tossed around your standing still and safe....amazing..*Shakes head*
OUR GOD IS SOO GOOD ^_^

chicken nuggetz

H-O-M-E
Ok...lets just say i'm home..and i'm frustrated though..its hard to be home with people who don't really care about God you know? *Shrugs* Sometimes I feel like im never going to be ok w/ this whole thing..like i'm going to fall apart each and every time I come home i'm going to lose it..that's what i'm most worried about..but maybe it wont happen..It feels like to much but according to my God and my bible say differently don't they :)....that's at least a good thing to know...Im going to chill w/ my friends and im pretty excited...-_-...
XD

H-0-M-3

So...I'm home...
lol *Shakes head* it's been pretty fun so far...I took a walk with my bro..and when we got back I Made some chocolate mousse with my Madre. Let me just tell you..she put the wrong amount of sugar in..so eh..it didn't taste quite the way it should lol but *shakes head* it was still fun..
After that played my guitar for a little while and now im sitting down and just chilling out...actually watching t.v..and later I will be playing halo for forever w/ my bro.^_^...lol it'll be great! It's going to be a long 2 weeks but it'll be ok! because I know my God is such a great God and this is the way that it has come to....
I was thinking about it the other day..and you know I was really praying and wondering..I want a bf..and ive been praying..but you know what...God is going to show me the man that i need when it comes..and im ok with that..ive been praying and its cool when God shows you that you CAN and you WILL wait on him...i mean what other choice do I have?! God is good...
and he is great
<3

ENd of the School YEAr

Right now i would just like to say how much i HATE the exit interview you have to take for loans..it's so annoying! And currently i would like to chuck something not very nice @ it...*growls* Im just very frustrated w/ it..but hopefully it will be over soon and guess what?!? I Wont have to deal w/ it..until next year when I get a new one..-_- LOL..oh well I guess that comes with not having enough money..but hopefully (HOPEFULLY)next year i'll get some more scholarships that's i can get and have $$ but yeah that's a wish..I don't even know if i'll have the money 2 finish 2nd year...But if God wants me there he will provide and I am very excited about that!
I am leaving friday *shakes head* WOW...and then for 2 1/2 weeks I am home..and then it's hop on a boat to the island and pray to the lord that the summer will be awesome. Im very nervous but *shakes head* WHO WOULDN'T BE! but yeah..im a little nervous.and i dont know the girls on my team very well...but hopefully it'll all be good -_-..It will be a rough summer but a good one @ that....OH the amazing thing is that 2nd year is going tobe so much fun...not as many of my friends will be here..which is a sad thought..but my good friends most of them will be and so i will be ablet o make it :) IM GOING TO GO TO finish this then clean..ha!

wow

It's so amazing to me..that when you finally let go...and give things to God how smoothly it goes along...and it amazes me even more how stupid I am...lol I never let it go right away I fight for the death to deal w/ the stupidity that I "need" to go through that I don't want to but I feel the necessity of it...If we ..really just realized how great our God is..and how he is in control of everything in our lives it really wouldn't be this difficult....
Time and time again we pray to God and we ask him to help us and give us strength..time and time again..and yet we doubt so much......GUH it frustrates me so much sometimes *Shakes head* But our God is good and ever loving...

Walk all over me..

ARG.
Im not quite sure why people decided to be idiots today it seems like everyone is deciding to be a jerk today...it's a little frustrating..like Kevin was asking me what I wanted to do w/ my future..after 2nd year..and then after I answered he promptly shot it all down..and im just sitting there like what in the freken world..and i asked him if we could talk about something else and he starts talking about it again..and im like WHAT THE FLIP..so i walked away and then he walks by..oh im sorry if i hurt you..I Didnt get to ask him if he really was or if he just was saying it to get me off his case but i rather not start crap...and then my"friend" when i walked out of the library gave me this huge attitude and was like what are you doing here..and i was like um study hours and he was like arent you campused..and i was like no...and he was like well then why did u go out of classes and i was like cuz i did...and i did classes online..and then he was like so your campused you should be in your room..what the flip...then i asked him if he was ok and he gives me this attitude...im really getting sick of this..can i deal w/ a 2nd year of people treating me like this..Maybe kevin was right I am a doormat..and i let people walk all over me...im getting sick of it im not going to lie..but i dont know how to change it..like thats my major problem..you can be sick of anything but unless you know what do w/ it...i guess you cant complain...
heh anyway.... the banquet was last night and that in itself was a wonderful time...really it was...let me just say it's been stressful but..God is good..I dont know how longim going to be able to do this for....but God gives strength

God

Wow...
let me just tell you..its been a crazy weekend once again...My friend a really...really good friend left =[ and it was probably the saddest day of my time here at the B.I so far....I tried to talk her out of it but she just wouldnt listen..im a bit frustrated that she thinks she is doing the right thing..i mean how can you think your doing the right thing when your going against everything...You've learned so much..you've done so well..things are going not so great...TRUTH it happens to everyone.you have to finish well..what other choice do you have?! Our God has given us this opportunity...to start well and even if we dont start well to finish well! AND WHY WOULD YOU QUIT?!?! 2 weeks..I know it would be a hard 2 weeks but man..God has so much he could have done *sighs* I just...I wish people would trust more..I mean yeah i know I have a problem with it..trust me i know that but IM STILL HERE YOU KNOW?!
It can be so hard sometimes to be in this place..but you know...#1-its better then being in a lot of places we could be...and #2-if you are growing and doing good and God is keeping you here for a reason OK!
your not here just for good times..
UGH *slams head*
God is a sovereign God..I have no choice but to trust

w00t

Hola!
SO...pretty much lets see whats going on...went to saratoga again today ^_^..got to see my friend brina that was good..I got to see mrs.bennett today ^_^ that was the highlight (im not going to lie) but hung out w/ some friends...it was a lot of good times all in 1. I got new gauges..w00t w00t im going to be up to a 1/2 inch...by tommorrow most likely..maybe not we will see..but im hoping *Smirks* anyway..going to pla apples to apples @ 9..fun x's
xXx

yep

So...
Pretty much life is going o_0...tommorrow I am going shopping...<3 i am pretty excited w00t w00t
xXx

will i stay or will i go now...

Im frustratred..(suprise right) and tired..and just tired of being frustrated lol...really its been that kind of time and im just quite sick of it..It's almost like..im questioning 2nd year because it's just that bad..I dk how long i can take it for..we'll c how i make it cuz right now i dont know if i will make it another year here...
:(
Off to class..

seem frustrated much

-_- ugh...
so yesterday...was a great day! I hung out w/ the bennett's all day how could it not be?! lol...but let me tell you...getting back here just shows me how frustrated I am and how easy it is to get frustrated with people....when they ditch me..like man thats really hard...I have felt so ditched lately..and people start making jokes about how nice it would be here without me like..sometimes i feel like they really want to say that they just dont because they dont want to "upset me" IM SICK OF IT anyway.....Today is most likely going to be a bad day but im going to try to make it good anyway..it's kind of like.....i dont even know how to explain how bad it is so far i just feel like crying but I guess it doesn't matter does it...
no one here cares and thats what gets me most..we are all supposed to be christians who care but truthfully..no one here really cares i dont think..except maybe a few kids and the deans...
it's hard realizing this but I guess everyone has to come to their own conclusion that your never going to make everyone happy so why trying making anyone happy..i guess thats bad theology..but i dont care right now..
im going to go eat lunch sit by myself until i have to work...or maybe i'll go back to bed..either way i dont care anymore...
im done w/ him...im done w/ them and im most certainly dont here....

away

Wow
you just ever have one of those...I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE days....yeah im having one of those..so guess what...IM GETTING OUT OF HERE...Im chilling w/ the bennetts all day..which really is the best thing that could ever happen to me because I just really love their family and they are awesome...It's sad when water is thicker then blood ya know?......like I really wanted to chill w/ my mom today but guess what..that's not happening...so now i guess i just get to be more blessed because I can chillax w/ mrs.bennett and the family....
I Miss my family but sometimes when this stuff happens it's like i wasnt made to be in a family like mine..a family where they dont really care...ya know? *Shrugs* Maybe im just being dramatic but..i really feel that way sometimes
heh

im going to go get the rest of the way ready..so peace out girl scout..
<3

AH

AHH
May i start by saying i am really quite sick of being ditched...*cough and sigh* yeah..thats right im sick of it and im not going to lie...its really ridiculous that I have to deal w/ these things you know..sometimes it just really gets me upset..and then when you ask someone to pray about things with you and they wont even do it...
LIKE UGH WHAT A FRIEND RIGHT??!?!
Im so sick of everything going on with this place and just ugh my heart is not in the right place right now and im working on it but oh man if things could just get easier
im going to go to bed b4 i punch something