i can finally breathe

AWESOME! finished the summer...(camp) anyways..and now i am at the B.I again. waiting to graduate..TOMORROW!! I cannot believe that it is seriously almost over...and i will start over again in...3 weeks ;) LOL ...I am going to Sheilas house tomorrow..and i am so excited..that i am going..:) YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY
...God is so good...and i cannot wait to write about it..when I HAVE TIME...(which isn't now) so i will write later most def..
<3 u people

my mind is wandering

ok..wow..back at camp and i was so THROWN back into things..deeper then they were when I left. but OH how thankful I have become to know that Our God is a God who works..*laughs* I AM SO THANKFUL to know that he is always working regardless of how we feel about things. We have a camper who is a very big cutter, and she is addicted to many things and..oh i was so angry with God t0 let me have her this week because she is very much like me...OH so much like me..down to the poetry and the way she puts up walls..o..but then my friends put me back in my place..showing me who God is and how foolish of me to question it at...all ...SO today is my day off and so thankful for the opportunity to fellowship with my friends and see what Gods doing :) OH YA LOL

I love these girls.....;) Look at them look at them im the one in the fro lol

GOD IS SO GOOD

....he is allowing me to go back to the island to counsel for this last week...oh God you are just so good I am so thankful for what you do...*smiles* OH he is so good...*dances* that means i will be gone...until..september..idk if i will be able to write on this..but i will try...
Pray for us this week as we are going through the last week of camp and i cannot wait to see what God does !!!!!
*giggles* ohh yes Lord!
In other news..i burnt my ear on a curling iron.. I will never curl my hair again LOL <3

tell me the truth

I need to get something off of my chest....
#1-how can you claim to be a Christian..and yet tell me you love me, and hate me..and that you think im not a Christian because i wont date you...then MONTHS later when i try to make things right( WHEN I DID NOTHING WRONG ) you call me a tumor and dis me again..and then on top of that talk to all the people i know and love just to get to me...
#2-GROW UP AHHHHHHHHHh
-_-...sorry I really needed to get that out..not that anyone really reads this anyway but..it's a good way for me to vent ha..im getting my tattoo fixed tomorrow PTL...i am so sick of looking at it the way it is..hopefully she can fix my butterfly one as well but if not..i will just have to pay full price to get that fixed which would be saddening to me lol..but its special to me so..i want to get that fixed...im excited to get mine fixed up..im nervous because i got burned with her once..but i do love her, and i just really want to be proud of her when i show her off you know? which is going to happen since shes ON MY LEG ha...:) ...hmmm God has been so good to me today..I had a huge no soda drinking headache. so i had a little bit of coffee and it made me feel a lot better...spent some time in Gods word today and just loving it! I watched LAink pretty much all day,after i did dishes and laundry..i felt like a bum but i really did a bit of work..lets see..i have to work on my room tomorrow..getting ready for college and all...Im going to be in New Hampshire until school starts with my friend Sheila and i am so pumped about that! it is going to be 3 weeks of complete crazy fun...and w000t i am so excited!! :)

That's it..for the day lol im waking up early in the a.m..9 for the tat fix so..;) here we go lovey doves...so thankful for this girl fixing it for 30bucks..thats not bad at all <3
ENDING ON A LOVELY NOTE
-Lovely- HA

update major

it has been 80 days since i cut 80 80 80 80 80 80 80 80 YES 80! HOW EXCITING!!! I cannot even believe it, i mean..of course I can my God is faithful and he has made it so hat i have power enough in him to do this....:-D PRAISE THE LORD...oh man! so
I decided to ....make this 80 day excitement i've also decided to stop drinking soda...so that starts today and...i am excited to make this change. i am also going to try to do 30 minutes of exorcise everyday. i already did 33 today, and i want to do some more when my mom gets home. I want to be healthy..:)
I also have decided im going to be myself..or well better put, who God has made me to be.. I am done trying to make other people happy...it isnt the way i was made to live, and i refuse to do it :) ANY LONGER :-D
God you are so good, and you are the only voice that i should be listening to. Lord I know you put many things into my life that I dont particularly like, but Lord you are in control of it all and i am so thankful for that. God thank you for giving me people in my life who really love me. Lord who really care for who i am and what ive been through. and God i thank you that you love me regardless of all ive done to hurt you Lord, all i've done to ruin your name. You are so forgiving and so amazing. Lord help me forgive those who hurt me God, who all they want to do is put me down. I know that isn't your will Lord so i ask for those people to realize what they are doing to themselves by acting like that towards people, and lord help them grow in you
thank you Lord

lifting up prayer for the stumps

God right now i come before you on behalf of Randi and Graham Stump. Lord Randi is hurting so badly right now Lord, you know Graham's status..and Lord. the doctors say he wont wake up and if he does, that in itself will be a miricle, Lord that if he does he will only be able to "survive" God we believe in such a bigger God then that. Lord we believe that you can heal him completely, lord you've done it so many times..God show them..who you are Lord i ask you to give the family comfort and peace beyond ALL this world could understand. God that you would show them your love like never before.

Im a fanatic

A moment of frustration...in my day...why do people think that as Christians we need to let everyone walk all over us...guess what THATS NOT WHAT BEING A CHRISTIAN IS ABOUT...we are to love and we are to care for people..but we will stick up for what we believe in and we will say how much we love Christ, pray for our food and if you dont like it that we dont curse, drink, or smoke...guess you'll have to deal with it because that is were I stand..Of course we aren't perfect..I know i screw up way more then i should, and i know that it isn't going to be easy...but GOD IS SO GOOD and gives us so much to look for..im just so sick of people complaining because I am a fanatical...w/e ...you know what if you call fanatic being different ,sticking up for what i believing in and telling you guess what..if you dont believe in my God you will go to hell *Shrug* It's the truth and if the truth is fanatic...then ;)
IM A F A N A T I C fanatic i'll rep christ until i d i e
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