God

Wow...
let me just tell you..its been a crazy weekend once again...My friend a really...really good friend left =[ and it was probably the saddest day of my time here at the B.I so far....I tried to talk her out of it but she just wouldnt listen..im a bit frustrated that she thinks she is doing the right thing..i mean how can you think your doing the right thing when your going against everything...You've learned so much..you've done so well..things are going not so great...TRUTH it happens to everyone.you have to finish well..what other choice do you have?! Our God has given us this opportunity...to start well and even if we dont start well to finish well! AND WHY WOULD YOU QUIT?!?! 2 weeks..I know it would be a hard 2 weeks but man..God has so much he could have done *sighs* I just...I wish people would trust more..I mean yeah i know I have a problem with it..trust me i know that but IM STILL HERE YOU KNOW?!
It can be so hard sometimes to be in this place..but you know...#1-its better then being in a lot of places we could be...and #2-if you are growing and doing good and God is keeping you here for a reason OK!
your not here just for good times..
UGH *slams head*
God is a sovereign God..I have no choice but to trust

w00t

Hola!
SO...pretty much lets see whats going on...went to saratoga again today ^_^..got to see my friend brina that was good..I got to see mrs.bennett today ^_^ that was the highlight (im not going to lie) but hung out w/ some friends...it was a lot of good times all in 1. I got new gauges..w00t w00t im going to be up to a 1/2 inch...by tommorrow most likely..maybe not we will see..but im hoping *Smirks* anyway..going to pla apples to apples @ 9..fun x's
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yep

So...
Pretty much life is going o_0...tommorrow I am going shopping...<3 i am pretty excited w00t w00t
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will i stay or will i go now...

Im frustratred..(suprise right) and tired..and just tired of being frustrated lol...really its been that kind of time and im just quite sick of it..It's almost like..im questioning 2nd year because it's just that bad..I dk how long i can take it for..we'll c how i make it cuz right now i dont know if i will make it another year here...
:(
Off to class..

seem frustrated much

-_- ugh...
so yesterday...was a great day! I hung out w/ the bennett's all day how could it not be?! lol...but let me tell you...getting back here just shows me how frustrated I am and how easy it is to get frustrated with people....when they ditch me..like man thats really hard...I have felt so ditched lately..and people start making jokes about how nice it would be here without me like..sometimes i feel like they really want to say that they just dont because they dont want to "upset me" IM SICK OF IT anyway.....Today is most likely going to be a bad day but im going to try to make it good anyway..it's kind of like.....i dont even know how to explain how bad it is so far i just feel like crying but I guess it doesn't matter does it...
no one here cares and thats what gets me most..we are all supposed to be christians who care but truthfully..no one here really cares i dont think..except maybe a few kids and the deans...
it's hard realizing this but I guess everyone has to come to their own conclusion that your never going to make everyone happy so why trying making anyone happy..i guess thats bad theology..but i dont care right now..
im going to go eat lunch sit by myself until i have to work...or maybe i'll go back to bed..either way i dont care anymore...
im done w/ him...im done w/ them and im most certainly dont here....

away

Wow
you just ever have one of those...I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE days....yeah im having one of those..so guess what...IM GETTING OUT OF HERE...Im chilling w/ the bennetts all day..which really is the best thing that could ever happen to me because I just really love their family and they are awesome...It's sad when water is thicker then blood ya know?......like I really wanted to chill w/ my mom today but guess what..that's not happening...so now i guess i just get to be more blessed because I can chillax w/ mrs.bennett and the family....
I Miss my family but sometimes when this stuff happens it's like i wasnt made to be in a family like mine..a family where they dont really care...ya know? *Shrugs* Maybe im just being dramatic but..i really feel that way sometimes
heh

im going to go get the rest of the way ready..so peace out girl scout..
<3

AH

AHH
May i start by saying i am really quite sick of being ditched...*cough and sigh* yeah..thats right im sick of it and im not going to lie...its really ridiculous that I have to deal w/ these things you know..sometimes it just really gets me upset..and then when you ask someone to pray about things with you and they wont even do it...
LIKE UGH WHAT A FRIEND RIGHT??!?!
Im so sick of everything going on with this place and just ugh my heart is not in the right place right now and im working on it but oh man if things could just get easier
im going to go to bed b4 i punch something