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Frustrated? Yes....
Ready to be done? yes...
I just feel sometimes like i need to get out of here..it's like that when so many things are on our minds and we just cant seem to get them out..when you
are just so sick of all the wrong that you do..and even when you try to do the right thing you feel...like you'll never accomplish the right thing. im there right
now and it really sucks..it's like im trying to fight this battle...im letting God have it but then i screw up..when i dont even think...*sigh* anyway..i just..im not
sure what's wrong with me and why my attitude is so crappy but im getting sick of it ....My "friends" Dont even try to encourage me it seems..and when i do
mess up all they seem to enjoy is bringing me down kinda laughing it up you know? *Sigh* Im ready to be done Lord....
In other news..today was work day on word of life island..and let me tell you something..i was so angry that i had to go..bad night last night and just fought
to have a good attitude..and you know i tried to do it by my own bootstraps..but how foolish of me...to think that i could do it.....
*Sigh* Lord take this horrible attitude away from me. Im done fighting you God, im done doing the things my flesh wants to do. Thank you for people who
point out my problems to me Lord and show me more and more what it's like to be you even though i think i hate it...