Have you ever liked someone a lot? and thought things were going the right way..and then one second, one choice made you change your mind?Maybe it was stupidity on your part, or maybe on theirs....either way your having major issues and guess what? The major time you want to talk to them you cant? I wish you could have seen it this morning when I woke up? It's ridiculous you know..how one can feel so inferior by 2 comments made :( I really cannot wait until he gets back so we can chat about this because I am sick of feeling this way...and on top of that I Slept through my alarm for church because i've been so worried and waking up every other hour.
Blog, im not going to lie..I haven't liked someone like this in a while..and it's killing me that he might screw me over. I don't want to believe it, because he seems to be an awesome man of God...but sometimes things say other words....I just wanted to beg him not to hurt me and if it was going to go anywhere w/ him and his ex to just drop me now because, Lord...I am not so sure how my heart will fare with being broken again. But the truth is Lord your in control of all..and it's true he is in control of all wither or not I like it. and I told myself I needed to understand that if he wasnt the right person for me, that I would listen..and that I would gladly take the hint and peace...but like sometimes I just feel like he is, and it's killing me because...my heart is in way deep..not sexually we arent, I am not kissing until marriage, but oh my heart will truly be ||destroyed|| but my God will protect me...
So if your a Christian and you read this..just pray for my heart. cause I like this boy a lot..and i know God's in control but i will still cry, i will still be quite upset, but i know in the end that my God is a good God...who protects me from all kinds of evil, and promises good things for me...
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