hope..

Sometimes I feel like such a liar...such a hypocrite..and you know it's really starting to get to me...but im not quite sure what to do with it..I ask God to forgive me..I try not to live the way that I did before I was saved, or the way i did before I was TRYING to live for God..but sometimes I just feel like im disgusting, ugly and need to make myself believe otherwise so i do stupid things to make it that way..Isaiah 26:3...it's been running through my head over and over...i've been reading it but not living it..and im having a horrible time with it..my friends are telling me i need to go live with them..that it's not good for me to be here it's not good for me to be at my house living the way they do doing the things i do when im home...I dont know..I didnt really agree until this morning i Really starting thinking about it..and this isnt good for me at all..especially not with my ministry coming up...this next week im just..i dont know worried i guess..I go back to wolbi tuesday (next) And i want to do it right you know? I want it to be ok..I want it not to be stupid or....you know me being a hypocrite..I cant do this..it's so hard and i just really want to give up but i know thats the wrong choice..I just need to suck it up maybe? GUH I dont know anymore im so lost and im just so confused...im going to ask...i know its not like me but you need to be humbled right?! you need to make sure things go the way they need to so i am going to see if i can stay w/ mat and his mom for a while..they have a good family..people i can trust...
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Isaiah 26:3
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