what a change

Exciting!!! I am at the Bennett's staying for a while..not sure how long exactly..and I am just so thankful for them..it's amazing when you find people that you truly can trust and that truly love you..I decided i couldnt be there anymore i just couldnt..it breaks me down and i lose it..and im so glad im in a place where i can be myself and I can just...let God build me up again...it's a great thing to have..and im privaliged to have people that can help me with that.. :) im just so thankful...God is being so good to me.....
I hate crying over happy things like...its' so odd for me to feel like people want me that people actually care if something happens to me or if i make it in this world...I Dont know how it feels yet truly...right now it just makes me cry..I know God cares about me dont get me wrong sometimes i guess it's just nice to know that human beings truly care about you and want the best for you...
....:) im just so thankful..going to read and then go to bed...
for once im going to sleep well i think ;)
LoL

hope..

Sometimes I feel like such a liar...such a hypocrite..and you know it's really starting to get to me...but im not quite sure what to do with it..I ask God to forgive me..I try not to live the way that I did before I was saved, or the way i did before I was TRYING to live for God..but sometimes I just feel like im disgusting, ugly and need to make myself believe otherwise so i do stupid things to make it that way..Isaiah 26:3...it's been running through my head over and over...i've been reading it but not living it..and im having a horrible time with it..my friends are telling me i need to go live with them..that it's not good for me to be here it's not good for me to be at my house living the way they do doing the things i do when im home...I dont know..I didnt really agree until this morning i Really starting thinking about it..and this isnt good for me at all..especially not with my ministry coming up...this next week im just..i dont know worried i guess..I go back to wolbi tuesday (next) And i want to do it right you know? I want it to be ok..I want it not to be stupid or....you know me being a hypocrite..I cant do this..it's so hard and i just really want to give up but i know thats the wrong choice..I just need to suck it up maybe? GUH I dont know anymore im so lost and im just so confused...im going to ask...i know its not like me but you need to be humbled right?! you need to make sure things go the way they need to so i am going to see if i can stay w/ mat and his mom for a while..they have a good family..people i can trust...
:)...
Isaiah 26:3
my new tattoO ^_^

Hola!

Wow..today was a long day..one that I LONG for it to be over -_- Im glad that tommorrow is church ^_^ ..ive been waiting to go to church for a while I miss it a lot..sadly when they wont teaxch you to drvie you really have no choice but to go when they let you go..or beg someone else for a ride and well I had no choice because it was to late last week...*Shrugs* Such is life aye ?
ANYWAY
Monday Im getting a tat..w00t w00t..and then...thursday im chilling w/ crystal and katelyn probably and then tuesday GO BACK w00t cant wait to go back :)

romance?

Ive really..been realizing how thankful I am that I am not in a relationship right now...It's really humbling to see all my friends go through hard times with their loved ones...*Shakes head* Im excited for the chances God is giving me to grow in my relationship with him..and that I know one day when I am in a relationship that it'll be the best time and i'll be able to bring my loved one closer to God because of it..^_^ it's an exciting thought!!
I wanna just tell people that maybe give them some encouragement ...yeah your not in a relationship right now..and maybe you are and its going (not so great) but truthfully..it'll be ok! Do what God wants and it will work out for the best...it may not be easiest..but it'll be the best in the end...
Single people::Enjoy single life while you have it...worship God the most you can while you have no one else to worry about so to speak......
People in relationships..help your loved one grow closer to God and continue seeking his will!!!
<3 u all!

oOOo so bored

My tongue is swollen..and my teamates on halo bit the dust...*sigh* it was kinda sad i'm not going to lie to you... SooOoOoOo yeah...
IM SO FREEKN BORED..I watched robot chicken tonight..lol that was so so funny....-_- and now aqua teen...
o_0 going to play halo3 tommorrow w/ chris...xD

whenever i wake up....

Today...
I read a bit...did a LOT of laundry..and I've been cleaning..-_- thats been some fun times lets just say that -_- NOT..ugh its so boring...let me tell you though...my tongue was very swollen this morning it was so funny..well to me atleast I laughed a lot but thats ok..its better now and im getting used to eating with it slowly i think..its hard and ive bitten the ball like...2x's so thats not to bad..ive been cleaning it when im supposed to so..I think it will be just fine...If not im going back on monday to get my tattoo so it'll be fine(I hope).
UGH I do not want to clean anymore..or do anymore laundry...or pack...YES im packing already thats how much I wish not to be here...*laughs* man i think im a little bit pathetic but im not sure what to bring so i just make sure that I have all i think..and if i dont have enough or if i have to much I will just have....my mom come get it or bring me stuff...
I KNOW I KNOW I go back in 13 days why am i already getting ready...seriously I know its going to be a hard summer more stretching then any other part of the year (So they say) but really..I cannot wait to go back..I hate being in a place where people really dont care about God..and those who do you wouldnt know it because they are to into their own lives...bLEH
Anyways...
off i go into the sun set to clean another room..

TODAY

was a really great day ^_^
I got to spend time with my friends,get my tongue peirced and its my madre's bday! it was just a really great time im not going to lie to you ....lol ^_^