T@@T()() future ^_^

I am soooo excited! On Monday I am getting tattooed, and then I might be getting my tongue peirced on the same day! I would be so so so so excited if i could get both..if not i am pretty darn excited just getting the tattoo..quite frankly ^_^ lol ^_^ thats the tattoo im getting on my wrist :) I think it's so cute and I just really...really <3it..it's important to me and..i just love it so much ^_^
SO yeah..hopefully it'll only cost me...50..but if it costs more its ok i just wont be able to get any...peircings...unless it costs like 60 then i might be able to get one of my nips peirced again -_-...
we'll see how it goes..this is mats and my...last time to hang out @ the tat shop b4 he goes to the army :(
I love him and im excited w00tzzz

Isaiah 26:3,4

"You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you.Trust in the LORD forever,
for the LORD, the LORD, is the Rock eternal"

He keeps ME in perfect peace when my mind is stayed on him...when I just trust in my heart that he is in control..when I realize that things going on aren't going to change because I want them to..when I realize hes the one who can change things not me...thats when my mind will be in perfect peace...because when your thinking of the God who is in control of everything..the God who loves you even though he knows every stupid thing about you..How could you not be in peace??...He is our rock eternal..When things get rocky..you get on that rock and your not going to be tossed around your standing still and safe....amazing..*Shakes head*
OUR GOD IS SOO GOOD ^_^

chicken nuggetz

H-O-M-E
Ok...lets just say i'm home..and i'm frustrated though..its hard to be home with people who don't really care about God you know? *Shrugs* Sometimes I feel like im never going to be ok w/ this whole thing..like i'm going to fall apart each and every time I come home i'm going to lose it..that's what i'm most worried about..but maybe it wont happen..It feels like to much but according to my God and my bible say differently don't they :)....that's at least a good thing to know...Im going to chill w/ my friends and im pretty excited...-_-...
XD

H-0-M-3

So...I'm home...
lol *Shakes head* it's been pretty fun so far...I took a walk with my bro..and when we got back I Made some chocolate mousse with my Madre. Let me just tell you..she put the wrong amount of sugar in..so eh..it didn't taste quite the way it should lol but *shakes head* it was still fun..
After that played my guitar for a little while and now im sitting down and just chilling out...actually watching t.v..and later I will be playing halo for forever w/ my bro.^_^...lol it'll be great! It's going to be a long 2 weeks but it'll be ok! because I know my God is such a great God and this is the way that it has come to....
I was thinking about it the other day..and you know I was really praying and wondering..I want a bf..and ive been praying..but you know what...God is going to show me the man that i need when it comes..and im ok with that..ive been praying and its cool when God shows you that you CAN and you WILL wait on him...i mean what other choice do I have?! God is good...
and he is great
<3

ENd of the School YEAr

Right now i would just like to say how much i HATE the exit interview you have to take for loans..it's so annoying! And currently i would like to chuck something not very nice @ it...*growls* Im just very frustrated w/ it..but hopefully it will be over soon and guess what?!? I Wont have to deal w/ it..until next year when I get a new one..-_- LOL..oh well I guess that comes with not having enough money..but hopefully (HOPEFULLY)next year i'll get some more scholarships that's i can get and have $$ but yeah that's a wish..I don't even know if i'll have the money 2 finish 2nd year...But if God wants me there he will provide and I am very excited about that!
I am leaving friday *shakes head* WOW...and then for 2 1/2 weeks I am home..and then it's hop on a boat to the island and pray to the lord that the summer will be awesome. Im very nervous but *shakes head* WHO WOULDN'T BE! but yeah..im a little nervous.and i dont know the girls on my team very well...but hopefully it'll all be good -_-..It will be a rough summer but a good one @ that....OH the amazing thing is that 2nd year is going tobe so much fun...not as many of my friends will be here..which is a sad thought..but my good friends most of them will be and so i will be ablet o make it :) IM GOING TO GO TO finish this then clean..ha!

wow

It's so amazing to me..that when you finally let go...and give things to God how smoothly it goes along...and it amazes me even more how stupid I am...lol I never let it go right away I fight for the death to deal w/ the stupidity that I "need" to go through that I don't want to but I feel the necessity of it...If we ..really just realized how great our God is..and how he is in control of everything in our lives it really wouldn't be this difficult....
Time and time again we pray to God and we ask him to help us and give us strength..time and time again..and yet we doubt so much......GUH it frustrates me so much sometimes *Shakes head* But our God is good and ever loving...

Walk all over me..

ARG.
Im not quite sure why people decided to be idiots today it seems like everyone is deciding to be a jerk today...it's a little frustrating..like Kevin was asking me what I wanted to do w/ my future..after 2nd year..and then after I answered he promptly shot it all down..and im just sitting there like what in the freken world..and i asked him if we could talk about something else and he starts talking about it again..and im like WHAT THE FLIP..so i walked away and then he walks by..oh im sorry if i hurt you..I Didnt get to ask him if he really was or if he just was saying it to get me off his case but i rather not start crap...and then my"friend" when i walked out of the library gave me this huge attitude and was like what are you doing here..and i was like um study hours and he was like arent you campused..and i was like no...and he was like well then why did u go out of classes and i was like cuz i did...and i did classes online..and then he was like so your campused you should be in your room..what the flip...then i asked him if he was ok and he gives me this attitude...im really getting sick of this..can i deal w/ a 2nd year of people treating me like this..Maybe kevin was right I am a doormat..and i let people walk all over me...im getting sick of it im not going to lie..but i dont know how to change it..like thats my major problem..you can be sick of anything but unless you know what do w/ it...i guess you cant complain...
heh anyway.... the banquet was last night and that in itself was a wonderful time...really it was...let me just say it's been stressful but..God is good..I dont know how longim going to be able to do this for....but God gives strength