Friday, October 22, 2010
Replacing Lies with truth
So...this web blog i read (Lies young women believe) is having this thing where you can write a blog for them..so i am going to take a swing at it and see what happens :)
:::Replacing lies with truth:::
*It is completely impossible to REPLACE lies with truth..unless you know the truth (John 3:16)
Coming from a home where love wasn’t the number one thing happening…I have been exposed to a lot of lies. Lies like “You’ll never be good enough”, “you are disgusting”, “No one could ever love you”, “you are scum”. All of my life this was the “truth” set before me…so when I came to the saving knowledge of the Lord…when his TRUE love filled me…and there was truth set before me I didn’t know what to do with it. Even though now, I had the truth of Jesus and his ultimate sacrifice for me…His transforming love…I was still stuck in lies of not good enough, not pretty enough…..and I started cutting to deal with my anger and my sadness….every emotion I had that wasn’t a positive one went into cutting.
This went on for a while until I started going to a bible institute…where people loved me for me and I thought this was the answer….people loving me must be ok because God loves me..so it all clicked together for me…..but when someone would get angry at me, or I didn’t do something right..I’d get upset and run right back to cutting.. I still wasn’t believing in Gods truth that he had promised me…perfect peace, forgiveness, love everlasting and an abundant life. Abundant lives aren’t filled with hatred, bitterness and jealousy…which is what I was dealing with. With my friends and my family.
When I actually got into God’s word..and looked at the truths that he had put in there for me to read..for me to BELIEVE..that is when I finally started understanding that I could beat this sin. And the other sins that I had been dealing with because I CAN do all things through Christ..because HE gives me the strength to.
One specific truth that has been so big to me for a long time (Since I started living for Christ) is found in Isaiah 26:3 “you keep him in perfect because whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts you.” My whole world can be crashing down..my fault or maybe not my fault, but regardless..If I am thinking on the truths that Jesus has given me..the truth that is God..the truth of love forgiveness and his perfect holiness…How can I not be in perfect peace? Complete peace that passes understanding of this world? On the other side though, if we are completely thinking of ourselves, and how we screwed up of course we won’t be peaceful…we are thinking of ourselves..finite foolish creatures.
The only way to replace lies with truth is knowing and dwelling on truth. Nothing else will do it.
:::Replacing lies with truth:::
*It is completely impossible to REPLACE lies with truth..unless you know the truth (John 3:16)
Coming from a home where love wasn’t the number one thing happening…I have been exposed to a lot of lies. Lies like “You’ll never be good enough”, “you are disgusting”, “No one could ever love you”, “you are scum”. All of my life this was the “truth” set before me…so when I came to the saving knowledge of the Lord…when his TRUE love filled me…and there was truth set before me I didn’t know what to do with it. Even though now, I had the truth of Jesus and his ultimate sacrifice for me…His transforming love…I was still stuck in lies of not good enough, not pretty enough…..and I started cutting to deal with my anger and my sadness….every emotion I had that wasn’t a positive one went into cutting.
This went on for a while until I started going to a bible institute…where people loved me for me and I thought this was the answer….people loving me must be ok because God loves me..so it all clicked together for me…..but when someone would get angry at me, or I didn’t do something right..I’d get upset and run right back to cutting.. I still wasn’t believing in Gods truth that he had promised me…perfect peace, forgiveness, love everlasting and an abundant life. Abundant lives aren’t filled with hatred, bitterness and jealousy…which is what I was dealing with. With my friends and my family.
When I actually got into God’s word..and looked at the truths that he had put in there for me to read..for me to BELIEVE..that is when I finally started understanding that I could beat this sin. And the other sins that I had been dealing with because I CAN do all things through Christ..because HE gives me the strength to.
One specific truth that has been so big to me for a long time (Since I started living for Christ) is found in Isaiah 26:3 “you keep him in perfect because whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts you.” My whole world can be crashing down..my fault or maybe not my fault, but regardless..If I am thinking on the truths that Jesus has given me..the truth that is God..the truth of love forgiveness and his perfect holiness…How can I not be in perfect peace? Complete peace that passes understanding of this world? On the other side though, if we are completely thinking of ourselves, and how we screwed up of course we won’t be peaceful…we are thinking of ourselves..finite foolish creatures.
The only way to replace lies with truth is knowing and dwelling on truth. Nothing else will do it.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
is it worth it now
Lord..i dont know.....
i really dont know what to do..i spent time in your word tonight Lord..cried to you and begged you...God i dont know WHY you are allowing this to happen I am trying so hard God...
*Sigh*
this fight is so hard
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i really dont know what to do..i spent time in your word tonight Lord..cried to you and begged you...God i dont know WHY you are allowing this to happen I am trying so hard God...
*Sigh*
this fight is so hard
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OH ANNE
OH! How I love Anne of green gables..SO MUCH!! And oh how much i love spaggeti ...and soda and cupcakes...OH AND SPENDING TIME w/ FRIENDS...i dont love any of those (Sept friends) as much as anne of green gables though :-D LOL!! I had such a great time w/ Tara and Crystal last night into this morning!!!
we got to the house and we decided to start working on the pumpkins..we quickly changed our minds though and decided if we made cupcakes then we could have them later..and that was just to good to pass up you understand!! :) So...we got to work on the cupcakes..once they were safe in the oven we started cutting open our pumpkins and loving making these crazy little jack-o lanterns.. :-D
I made mine look like the Canadian flag..and then i tried to make Anne of green gables..but oh let me tell you that flopped....i can barely even tell the lettering says anne..:) LOL but it's ok..we had SO much fun doing it..it makes up for the ridiculousness of mine haha
after we did the pumpkins we decided it was time for dinner..and it was time to start watching anne of green gables...(we had decided to watch all of them) ok..this was like at 11..i think? Well let me just tell you i didnt get done watching it until 6:30 am! LOL
Ok..i forgot a really IMPORTANT FACT.....we had to strain and pick out Pumpkin seeds from stinking 8 pumpkins and then from the ones WE had...we decided we wanted to cook them but had to stinking wait for them to dry out..well you know me..you know that i dont enjoy waiting for natural things to happen..so i grabbed a hair dryer and decided to go craazZyyYy!! LoL WHICH HEY just to let you know IT WORKED and it was great ;)
anyway..so yes i spent my night and morning watching Anne of green gables and then the sequal and then the continuing story...
:-D
GOOD TIMES!!!!!!!!!!!
we got to the house and we decided to start working on the pumpkins..we quickly changed our minds though and decided if we made cupcakes then we could have them later..and that was just to good to pass up you understand!! :) So...we got to work on the cupcakes..once they were safe in the oven we started cutting open our pumpkins and loving making these crazy little jack-o lanterns.. :-D
I made mine look like the Canadian flag..and then i tried to make Anne of green gables..but oh let me tell you that flopped....i can barely even tell the lettering says anne..:) LOL but it's ok..we had SO much fun doing it..it makes up for the ridiculousness of mine haha
after we did the pumpkins we decided it was time for dinner..and it was time to start watching anne of green gables...(we had decided to watch all of them) ok..this was like at 11..i think? Well let me just tell you i didnt get done watching it until 6:30 am! LOL
Ok..i forgot a really IMPORTANT FACT.....we had to strain and pick out Pumpkin seeds from stinking 8 pumpkins and then from the ones WE had...we decided we wanted to cook them but had to stinking wait for them to dry out..well you know me..you know that i dont enjoy waiting for natural things to happen..so i grabbed a hair dryer and decided to go craazZyyYy!! LoL WHICH HEY just to let you know IT WORKED and it was great ;)
anyway..so yes i spent my night and morning watching Anne of green gables and then the sequal and then the continuing story...
:-D
GOOD TIMES!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Right!
lately i have been struggling w/ a lot of things..and i am going to be very real right now and say that....dieting..and making myself throw up is one of them..and I really..have just been over come with this..i feel gross..and ugly..and not believing the promises that God has for me..and how foolish it is for me to believe these things...
I was really convicted to read isaiah 43...and ephesians...Gods faithfulness and then who I am in him...Oh praise him for his goodness and my ridiculousness....YA
(the poem is one that i wrote today..really just talking about my struggles and whats going on in my life)
(the poem is one that i wrote today..really just talking about my struggles and whats going on in my life)
ya...I want to be so ...in love w/ Gods word that I can tell truth from lies..and i know i can tell truth from lies but i want to believe the truth rather then the lies..and that has been a huge problem with me..and...if i could just believe them it would make it so much better...for me to be able to trust Christ instead of believing the things that I shouldn't...he promised me he would never leave me or forsake me and i am so thankful for that..he promises me that he loves me....he DIED FOR ME!! And he rose again...
Oh PRAISE HIM
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